Once upon a time, I was falling in love
 But now, I'm only falling apart
 There's nothing I can do
 A total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time, there was light in my life
 But now, there's only love in the dark
 There's nothing I can say
 A total eclipse of the heart

I am always in the dark..

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Monday, July 28, 2008
3:37 AM

hmmm.. change new enviroment and all will be better for me.
i cant stay there anymore though i feel so sad and cant bear to leave e place.
but i have no choice bad memories still there.
i wanna leave..goodbye friends and my dearest customers.
i love being ard with a cosy and friendly place w u all.
talk and have fun with u.. no matter wad imagical always stay in my heart.
is this place who brought me up and of cos its this place giving me
lots of happy memories .. w/o this place i guess i still the old ben.
living in e past..but i have to leave i dun wish to live in e past, everyday
pass by tiong bahru and every west line. its really tiring. its really hurting..
so i guess i leaving. guys takecare..JIAYOU! u all got me to support.
no matter hw much u all hate me.oos i leave u all alone im really sorry.
but still i will be back alright.. guys! JIAYOU!

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Tuesday, July 15, 2008
12:56 AM

OMG!! ferlicia gonna married soon..
though on the fone w her.
i sounded so happy for her finally she wun be a old hag all alone in her life..
but i felt quite sad..
when i remember hw i get to noe her and see her as a busybody til nw..
LOL.
let me think back..hw a funny consellor who can convince me to tok to her.
when i first got to noe her.
she always try alot ways to tok to me and persuade me tt i gt a probation on hand.
letting me noe tt i shldnt be out for long and have to be home early.
hw i sscolded her and confront her telling her tt my time is so precious..
hw many warning letter i dun care..
after a few round section it was almost my last time to tok to her.
she said one thing to me..
RENA i really cannot manage to tok to u alrd. i tried my best to talk to u.
and u didnt even bothered guess i think u shld leave here and prepare to go in.
i saw her tears kept rolling. i felt so sad abt it, i really make someone who
really want to noe me well cried. she has no ill-intention. DEN..
i finally tok to her. and we became friends after my section and all.
we went out like friend Chat Nonsense and all..
she really someone who can turn to and help me with my prob as a friend
nt a person who doing her job.
hmm she also gg to state after her marriage. hopefully
she will be enjoying herself.
she got all my blessing..

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Sunday, July 13, 2008
2:15 PM

MY FRIENDS... VERON.SC.Shar and ian...





expressing the emptiness inside me..

Monday, July 07, 2008
1:59 AM

This is my favourite SONG!!
by brain mcknight...
he really have great song..
My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the shelf
I saw you holding hands, standing close to someone else
Now I sit all alone wishing all my feeling was gone
I gave my best to you, nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

Chorus:
One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I've gotta put you outta my mind this time
Stop living a lie

I guess I'm down to my last cry
Cry......
I was here, you were there
Guess we never could agree
While the sun shines on you
I need some love to rain on me
Still I sit all alone, wishing all my feeling was gone
Gotta get over you, nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

Repeat Chorus

I know I gotta be strong
Cause round me life goes on and on and on
And on.....
I'm gonna dry my eyes
Right after I had my
One last cry

Repeat Chorus

I guess I'm down
I guess I'm down
I guess I'm down...
To my last cry...

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Sunday, June 15, 2008
12:31 AM

im finally recover!! YEA!!
i know when im sick theres nobody could took my nonsense and temper.
oh god!! i feeel so badd. sorry guys and mummy..
really very stressed at wrk. i hate being sick.
it remind me of my past.
when im sick at least im happy being sick.
ytd i have food poisoning u noe, tt make me so useless of myself.
and ta da..!!im recovering soon!!
finally, get through my hard time being sick lol..
everything will be alright and life still have to move on.
think back hw silly am i to think tt life w/o tt something its worthless..
im learning to accept ppl in my life and stuff
i trying to move on as much as i could.
life still goes on..
i love my cosyy.. rooommmmm..
night rest..
i wan peaceee.. outside fighting and alll..
i dun care.. i jus wanna to stay alone at home.
playing viwawa..hahah..
so funnnn..YAHOOOOo...
alright back to wrk and my home..
save lots lots of money ..heeee

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Wednesday, June 11, 2008
11:50 PM

what a f* day;(
im so pissd without any peace or rest..
i f* sick for e past few days.
and this time i have no choice but to see doc..
but it getting worse.
nobody understand hw much suffering im having nw.
no freedom. even online or doing my own thing.
keep pestering me ask me to do this or do tt.
help her to this and do that.
ask me to see hw she do and even wanna to do infront of me,while im doing my things.
i cant stand this kind of things even im sick i cant have rest.
must on the light fiddle her things looking for thing.
YES! its my mum.. im very sick i jus wan my own time being alone resting w/o anyone
beside me. one is enough to tolerate nw the 2nd one.
sometime i think life is so meaningless..and irritated.
sighhsss..
JUS GIVE ME A BREAK!nw i dun wan anything i jus need my precious time being alone.
LEAVE ME ALONE.......
no one will understand hw i felt

expressing the emptiness inside me..

Saturday, June 07, 2008
10:47 PM

this song really touching.its so meaninful



I got the call today, I didn't wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old true friend of ours was talkin' on the phone
She said you found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck,
And the struggles we went through
And how I lost me and you lost you
What are these voices outside love's open door
Make us throw off our contentment
And beg for something more?

I'm learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

These times are so uncertain
There's a yearning undefined
...People filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age
The trust and self-assurance that can lead to happiness
They're the very things we kill, I guess
Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms
And the work I put between us,
Doesn't keep me warm

I'm learning to live without you now
But I miss you, Baby
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I figured out, I have to learn again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But everything changes
And my friends seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

There are people in your life who've come and gone
They let you down and hurt your pride
Better put it all behind you; life goes on
You keep carrin' that anger, it'll eat you inside

I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
Because the flesh will get weak
And the ashes will scatter
So I'm thinkin' about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

expressing the emptiness inside me..

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