unsaturated love

life still goes on..

2008-07-28T03:37:00.002+08:00

hmmm.. change new enviroment and all will be better for me.
i cant stay there anymore though i feel so sad and cant bear to leave e place.
but i have no choice bad memories still there.
i wanna leave..goodbye friends and my dearest customers.
i love being ard with a cosy and friendly place w u all.
talk and have fun with u.. no matter wad imagical always stay in my heart.
is this place who brought me up and of cos its this place giving me
lots of happy memories .. w/o this place i guess i still the old ben.
living in e past..but i have to leave i dun wish to live in e past, everyday
pass by tiong bahru and every west line. its really tiring. its really hurting..
so i guess i leaving. guys takecare..JIAYOU! u all got me to support.
no matter hw much u all hate me.oos i leave u all alone im really sorry.
but still i will be back alright.. guys! JIAYOU!

Hmmm..

2008-07-15T00:56:00.002+08:00

OMG!! ferlicia gonna married soon..
though on the fone w her.
i sounded so happy for her finally she wun be a old hag all alone in her life..
but i felt quite sad..
when i remember hw i get to noe her and see her as a busybody til nw..
LOL.
let me think back..hw a funny consellor who can convince me to tok to her.
when i first got to noe her.
she always try alot ways to tok to me and persuade me tt i gt a probation on hand.
letting me noe tt i shldnt be out for long and have to be home early.
hw i sscolded her and confront her telling her tt my time is so precious..
hw many warning letter i dun care..
after a few round section it was almost my last time to tok to her.
she said one thing to me..
RENA i really cannot manage to tok to u alrd. i tried my best to talk to u.
and u didnt even bothered guess i think u shld leave here and prepare to go in.
i saw her tears kept rolling. i felt so sad abt it, i really make someone who
really want to noe me well cried. she has no ill-intention. DEN..
i finally tok to her. and we became friends after my section and all.
we went out like friend Chat Nonsense and all..
she really someone who can turn to and help me with my prob as a friend
nt a person who doing her job.
hmm she also gg to state after her marriage. hopefully
she will be enjoying herself.
she got all my blessing..

hmm.. WaLL of SISTER..

2008-07-13T14:15:00.002+08:00

MY FRIENDS... VERON.SC.Shar and ian...

My favourite song..

2008-07-07T01:59:00.001+08:00

This is my favourite SONG!!
by brain mcknight...
he really have great song..
My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the shelf
I saw you holding hands, standing close to someone else
Now I sit all alone wishing all my feeling was gone
I gave my best to you, nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

Chorus:
One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I've gotta put you outta my mind this time
Stop living a lie

I guess I'm down to my last cry
Cry......
I was here, you were there
Guess we never could agree
While the sun shines on you
I need some love to rain on me
Still I sit all alone, wishing all my feeling was gone
Gotta get over you, nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

Repeat Chorus

I know I gotta be strong
Cause round me life goes on and on and on
And on.....
I'm gonna dry my eyes
Right after I had my
One last cry

Repeat Chorus

I guess I'm down
I guess I'm down
I guess I'm down...
To my last cry...

hahah!! gooooddd~~

2008-06-15T00:31:00.002+08:00

im finally recover!! YEA!!
i know when im sick theres nobody could took my nonsense and temper.
oh god!! i feeel so badd. sorry guys and mummy..
really very stressed at wrk. i hate being sick.
it remind me of my past.
when im sick at least im happy being sick.
ytd i have food poisoning u noe, tt make me so useless of myself.
and ta da..!!im recovering soon!!
finally, get through my hard time being sick lol..
everything will be alright and life still have to move on.
think back hw silly am i to think tt life w/o tt something its worthless..
im learning to accept ppl in my life and stuff
i trying to move on as much as i could.
life still goes on..
i love my cosyy.. rooommmmm..
night rest..
i wan peaceee.. outside fighting and alll..
i dun care.. i jus wanna to stay alone at home.
playing viwawa..hahah..
so funnnn..YAHOOOOo...
alright back to wrk and my home..
save lots lots of money ..heeee

WHAt a hell past few days..

2008-06-11T23:50:00.002+08:00

what a f* day;(
im so pissd without any peace or rest..
i f* sick for e past few days.
and this time i have no choice but to see doc..
but it getting worse.
nobody understand hw much suffering im having nw.
no freedom. even online or doing my own thing.
keep pestering me ask me to do this or do tt.
help her to this and do that.
ask me to see hw she do and even wanna to do infront of me,while im doing my things.
i cant stand this kind of things even im sick i cant have rest.
must on the light fiddle her things looking for thing.
YES! its my mum.. im very sick i jus wan my own time being alone resting w/o anyone
beside me. one is enough to tolerate nw the 2nd one.
sometime i think life is so meaningless..and irritated.
sighhsss..
JUS GIVE ME A BREAK!nw i dun wan anything i jus need my precious time being alone.
LEAVE ME ALONE.......
no one will understand hw i felt

this song is really touching..

2008-06-07T22:47:00.002+08:00

this song really touching.its so meaninful

I got the call today, I didn't wanna hear
But I knew that it would come
An old true friend of ours was talkin' on the phone
She said you found someone
And I thought of all the bad luck,
And the struggles we went through
And how I lost me and you lost you
What are these voices outside love's open door
Make us throw off our contentment
And beg for something more?

I'm learning to live without you now
But I miss you sometimes
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

These times are so uncertain
There's a yearning undefined
...People filled with rage
We all need a little tenderness
How can love survive in such a graceless age
The trust and self-assurance that can lead to happiness
They're the very things we kill, I guess
Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms
And the work I put between us,
Doesn't keep me warm

I'm learning to live without you now
But I miss you, Baby
The more I know, the less I understand
All the things I thought I figured out, I have to learn again
I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But everything changes
And my friends seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

There are people in your life who've come and gone
They let you down and hurt your pride
Better put it all behind you; life goes on
You keep carrin' that anger, it'll eat you inside

I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
But my will gets weak
And my thoughts seem to scatter
But I think it's about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter
Because the flesh will get weak
And the ashes will scatter
So I'm thinkin' about forgiveness
Forgiveness
Even if, even if you don't love me anymore

i miss those days..

2008-05-31T23:23:00.002+08:00

things are back to normal though.
wrk stress is still stressing me..
hmmm.. yup..
though..
im getting better im nt feeling very good.
jus feel differences ard me.
tt make me feel a sudden change in myself.
does ppl really change so fast?
EVEN a world dun turn as fast as human does.
i dunno. i feel tt there are so many changes.
within 6month or more.
its like things getting worse.
changes are so many in life.
i trying to adapted the world the life i shld have.
i cant be suffering.
my temper its getting worse.
throwing ard and every where,when theres no wan who obey me.
though im still sociable.
i still can accept who i am nw.
why does this happen to me.
why can things be normal and happily ever after.
i miss those days.
those days which is so wonderful and always remains in my heart.
some memorable stuff which makes me carry on with every single
trouble problem came to me.
i believe its fated.
things are gonna be bad for me even worse.
i dun think i would wan to prepare for it.
jus waiting to be punished...

its only u...

2008-05-27T00:02:00.002+08:00

hmmm.. nobody can make me smile........
would anyone noes how i felt.
the pain inside me and fear i got.
sighs. i felt so restricted.
i feel tt i hv alot proj i could handle and help up.
and i have to reject them nw.
as my boss dun like it.
sighsss.. life still have to go on right>?
god has t treat me fairly..
dun let me conyinue w e suffer.
just let me happy 4 e day.
i'll be more contented..:)
sighs..

the lyrics ..

2008-05-26T01:49:00.001+08:00

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
[to fade]

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seriously.. im dying soon with my like gambling.
alcholic and smonking. im under e sum kind of illness i guess.
if things gonna be continue for my next ten years of life.
no one noes hw im suffering from depression.
how long i still pulling myself up again.
its really hard.though i may looks okay.
but seriously im nt.
anyone jus help me..:(

finally she's back.

2008-05-12T00:49:00.003+08:00

Finally she's back.
i tot i really lost so many ppl in my life.
especially the ones who left me. i felt so lonely and afraid.
no one to turn to, no one to rely on.
hw i wish i was the used to be me. as independent as i am.
full of confident in myself. now i left w regrets n even terible stuff.
no way i could turn bac time,it isnt any fairytale.
now it i feel reality is so much important.
i dunno hw could survive any longer w life and places like here.
with full of stresses and heart-aching.
i feel like givin up everything and rot to desth.
wht can i do to improve my life w no goals anymore..
i worse den a person who is handicap.at least they tryin very badly
to get back their lifes. hw i wish i will be like them so strong..
nw i have fulfill my responsiblity in salon.
taking care well and most impt i tried my best to be the best.
i need a break a long break that no one could find me. be a loner den...
just think abt it, i have nv really laugh and being happy for so long.
its such amazed i didnt get to have a real good laughter and being such happy life anymore.this is all fated, i still have to go with it.my dearest mum is back.. let take a look at her foto. anyway this song its v meaningful and is for someone special to hears it. i know she will noe who she is. u noe what im thinking.

anth day passes..

2008-04-10T01:18:00.002+08:00

im going Japan SHIOK!!
haha fly me to e moon and let me see the flying stars??
i dunno la.
i NEED A BREAK SErioUSly..
everything is unfair for me.
im feeling very Stress..

what A BEAUTIFUL Birthday.:)

2008-03-27T23:39:00.005+08:00

thank u everyone who turn up my SALON!! SO SWEEETs.
im so touched.
thanks u XIAN for my SHirt that really nice.
and its really nice for u to came down to celebrate w me.
hahah tt make me happy seriously u spend a complete 3years birthday w me.
haha. im happy w everything. clearing all e doubts i had.
and living happily.
finally u understand hw i felt and clear all e misunderstanding we had together.
heee. i love u my dear friend:) jus remember we are always good friend.
and i'll be there for u ..
dun worry and celebrate ur birthday COMING!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY:)!! u r turning into WHITE HAIR GIRL:)!!
hehheeee. enjoy urself and ur life dun WASTE IT!
heeee

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thank u juliet for all ur hard wrk.
and i really love e cakes too darling.
its so sweet u done such a nice cake for me my dear.:)
heee..truly appriciated.'
thank u to WEIJING, BESTIE SIEW CHOO, LI WEI And nick.
difinately got my darling JULIET INSIDE..
thank u all of ur smses tt touched me alot.
i really noe who i really can rely on.
:)
i love u guys ..
takecareee..

I love the songs:)

2008-03-25T09:49:00.001+08:00

This street is too crowded
Too many people have secrets
There is condensation on the glass, who is concealed in the past?
The emotion on your face
Is restoring that period of rain
This alley is too warped, we can't get back into the story

These days are no longer green
Mottled with a few words again
Leaving me behind with empty memories in the big house
The seats in the movie theatre
Are separated very far apart
Feelings without scenes together, you're playing chess with yourself

Still it's too late to carefully write down things about you
Describing how I love you
Yet you smile and leave me

This feeling
Is already not right
I try my best to save it
Some of the
Considerate feelings that should have been given
I didn't give
You pout
The dream you made is very petty and low
We're compromising
I neglected you
All you wanted was someone to be with you

This feeling
Is already not right
I only understand at the very end
The pages of the
Plot I can't bare to turn over
You are very tired
You recite
You cried for me a few times
You're so languished
And I'm heartbroken, you're suffering
Your beauty
I'm not worthy of it

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hmmm sian.!
so fast is 25.03
aiyo. fuck

i feel is drifting apart.

2008-03-13T00:23:00.002+08:00

are u drifting apart from me.
though im always waiting for ur calls.
we are Friends why are u doing this to me?
i feel so bad.
that im always waiting and expecting u to come and talk to me.
telling me hw ur life experience are.
and hw much u enjoy urself.
i tot u were be e one who think abt me.
or maybe contacting me.
hmmmm.. guess u r too busy:).
its okay.
------------
let see wad i have been doing..
hiding in e salon.
sighs..

I love this lyrics is so meaningful

2008-03-13T00:22:00.000+08:00

I thought sometime alone
was what we really needed
you said this time would hurt more than it helps
but I couldn't see that
I thought it was the end
of a beautiful story
and so I left the one I loved at home to be alone(alone)
and I tried to find
out if this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
whoo-oo-oo-oo yeah

And then I met someone
and thought she could replace you
we got a long just fine
we wasted time because she was not you
we had a lot of fun
though we knew we were faking
love was not impressed with our connection they were all lies, all lies
so I'm here cause I found this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else

I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
who holds my heart

I can't blame you if you turn away from me, like I've done you,
I can only prove the things I say with time,
please be mine,

I'd rather have bad times with(please be mine) you,
than good times with someone else(I know)
I'd rather be beside you in a storm(anytime),
than safe and warm by myself(so sure baby)
I'd rather

this lyrics of this song in my blog

2008-03-13T00:16:00.000+08:00

我问为什么
那女孩传简讯给我
而你为什么
不解释低着头沉默
我该相信你很爱我
不愿意敷衍我
还是明白
你已不想挽回什么

想问为什么
我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么
却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着
把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕
真相太赤裸裸
狼狈仁ツ咽?br>
我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动

我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
谁记得
谁忘了

想问为什么
我不再是你的快乐
可是为什么
却苦笑说我都懂了
自尊常常将人拖着
把爱都走曲折
假装了解是怕
真相太赤裸裸
狼狈比失去难受

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动

我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口
谁忘了

我怀念的是无言感动
我怀念的是绝对炽热
我怀念的是你很激动
求我原谅抱得我都痛

我记得你在背后
也记得我颤抖着
记得感觉汹涌
最美的烟火
最长的相拥
谁爱得太自由
谁过头太远了
谁要走我的心
谁忘了那就是承诺

谁自顾自地走
谁忘了看着我
谁让爱变沉重
谁忘了要给你温柔

我怀念的
我还有想要爱你的冲动
我记得那年生日
也记得那一首歌
记得那片星空
最紧的右手
最暖的胸口

我放手
我让座
假洒脱
谁懂我多么不舍得

太爱了
所以我
没有哭
没有说

hmmm.. watched e leap years.

2008-03-06T09:33:00.002+08:00

its so touching after watching the leap years u noe.
according to age old traditions, a woman can ask a man(or butch)for
their hand in marriage. on the 29th feb.

hmmm i dunno life has to go on. i dun believe there's happily ever after.
but i do believe in e show about WAITING.
its true if u nv tried ur best waiting with patience.
i think there is no hope.
i guess things still have to go.
huggs. takecare everyone.

watanabe academy

2008-02-20T12:42:00.002+08:00

oh god. hopefully i could got into it.
LOL. watanabe was e only acadamy i saw in e web.
harajuku in tokyo.
i have to tok to my dad and ask maami to look for me again.
just let me fly to the moon.
Heee.. so excited.:)
Milan was another places i wan to go. hee so excited.

Stop it ppl

2008-01-30T02:16:00.000+08:00

stop it!!!
Stop all the nonsense u ppl doing to me.
stop pulling my mask off my face.
stop all the nonsense to me again.
i have been v stress up.
life IS SO TOUGH

This is very NICE>!!!!

2008-01-16T09:48:00.000+08:00

i love the meaning in e song and i will learn the song..
HEHeheee.. today is my off day. planning to go out soon .
celebrate weijing's birthday LOL.. :)
very sian la.
CAS WHERE THE HELL ARE U ?
Friday after wrk go club u serious?
:P
very sian.. wrk also sian, no work also sian.
LOL. nthing to do man. :((
heee..
alright i will stop blogging

I love this song..

2008-01-16T09:41:00.000+08:00

so long nt been blogging

2008-01-09T00:09:00.000+08:00

hey guys, life changed.
ya pullin thru my hard time at wrk and emotional.
alot ppl giving me this courage to walk thru this hardship.
killing myself is a nono LOL:)
added 2 new colleague who SO FUN:)
ahaha.. xmas and new year didnt spend time w kazaf.
MIRICLE RIGHT?
hahaha spending time with so many ppl.
ya.have nt been contacting kazaf.
though worry for her.
but we aint good friends anymore.
we said it clear and for all after xmas. and its before new year.
we drifted apart. though is really sad..
stop saying all this.
things changed seriously.
my fone lost and my ipod is lost too.
within this 2month shocking period.
things change..
i've changed too..
let nt talk so much see all this foto..

sighs.

2007-11-21T12:00:00.001+08:00

不知不觉哭了好久
我还想着你说过的话
你说要一起加油
说要再牵著我
可是我却看不见你的手
那天晚上泪如雨下
我哭倒在房间地板上
随便张望都崩溃
回忆在每个地方
相爱的画面为什么那么心伤
我只是一个傻瓜
为你把眼泪流光
心碎了却还是假装自己好坚强
我笑的好傻
不过在掩饰哀伤
痛的时候才真的看见绝望
为你把力气用光
也许你早就不在我却还在奢望
你走的好静
一点也没有声响
这种离开
原来才最叫人永远难忘

as time goes by.

2007-11-17T18:52:00.000+08:00

Not a day goes by that I don't need you in my life
Was it something that I did,
tell me why~ And I can't get pass the pain to your love is just a memory
Gradually, you slip away And all I can say it stay

Can somebody please, stop this hurt inside
Although, your love for me has changed
After all the pain you've cost that I still can't get you outta my mind
No matter what you say I can't let go

As time goes by, will our memories fade
tell me how can you go on after all that we've been thru
I don't wanna go on without you in my life
because in my heart I still believe that you
will come back to me

I'm begging you please,
stop this hurt inside although your love for me has changed
After all the pain you've cost that I still can't get you outta my mind
No matter what you say I can't let go

As time goes by, will our memories fade
tell me how can you go on after all that we've been thru
I don't wanna go on without you in my life
because in my heart I still believe that you

Do I ever cross your mind Did you even stop to cry?
In my heart you'll always stay,
don't let us slip away
Tho' I've tried I can't let go you're still the one for me
We can work it out in your love I still believe
You are the one

As time goes by won't let our memories fade
tell me how can you go on after all that we've been thru
I won't let you go on without me in your life
because in my heart we're meant to be in love
As Time Goes By

hmm. congratulation to ms fong xiao jie..

2007-11-15T22:08:00.000+08:00

hey girl congratulation to u :).
go for e great exposure, and explore to places.
hmmm meet up with interesting fellows.
SEE THE WORLD outside.
haha im so happy to u. u finally do something for yourself.
pls bring extra sweater on jan times.
hey jus take my fone there.
u can contact my dad or my aunt if u get sick or anything happen..
they will be there for u.
if u are sick let me noe..
i will fly over there and take care of u..
i promised.
remember tt i will be here for u if u needed.
let me have tis chance to tkcare of u.
hahahha... over there i still have some friends.
u can contact them alright. especially emma is coming back.
she can speak a lil eng and chi.
u all can comunicate.
let me where is ur dorm. as i noe it wun be too far from town or
airport. give me a call or email when u reach there.
at least i noe where r u :).
must me and ur friends okay.
i will miss u alot lol though u haven been there yet.:)
heheee. let me noe soon k?? huggs.

She is totally in.

2007-11-14T12:11:00.000+08:00

COngrats !! u are in to JAL again.. all the best and i give u all my blessing in ur interesting work. explore more.. take care of urself even more. OMG!! u going to see the world now. getting lots of social network and meeting interesting ppl. but jus becareful :)..
-----------------------------------------
hmm.. work is okay. been struggling very hard.
but wad to do.. hope things work out..
but i will never give up..

hmmm... i miss you sweetheart

2007-11-13T00:06:00.000+08:00

Spending all my nights,
All my money going out on the town
Doing anything just to get you off of my mind
But when the morning comes,
I'm right back where I started again
Trying to forget you is just a waste of time

Baby come back, any kind of fool could see
There was something in everything about you
Baby come back, you can blame it all on me
I was wrong, and I just can't live without you

All day long, wearing a mask of false bravado
Trying to keep up the smile that hides a tear
But as the sun goes down, I get that empty feeling again
How I wish to God that you were here

Now that I put it all together
Give me the chance to make you see
Have you used up all the love in your heart
Nothing left for me, ain't there nothing left for me

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hmm.. batam was fun but it wasnt tt great..

2007-11-07T22:16:00.000+08:00

the time passes so fast in batam.. is killing me so badly.
it was fun really i do enjoy every moment i spend w her.
she was beautiful, she really make me feel better.
having all the fake smile with customers and friends all this while..Is driving me nuts.pretending im alright,yet im suffering frm inside..
i cant stop thinking of her at all.
since e day she left me, i promised her tt i wun do silly things.
and everything suddenly turn so sour and screwed.
i told myself, i will walk myself out and solved all e probs myself.
but things seem so bad even i try to solve it..it doesnt work it at all.
been drinkg every single day to kill my boring night.taking alcohol as my sleeping pills.Trying nt to think abt it.i cant take any sleeping pill from e doctor.
i dun wan to go to IMH.. i not crazy i jus under some shocked.
i cant sleep at all. anyone understand my pain and shocked tt someone who is so close to me leaving me. no more hugsss and kisses, no more happy n intimate moment spending with each other. no more listening ear.. and of cos more of things happen on her, tt make me feel sad.her dream of having great salary in JAL.i was quite upset too.by seeing tt she really given up tt position..sighhs anyway if in e past, i dun wish to noe anything abt her love life. unless.. there someone who hurt her. whether she is right or wrong i will still be by her side n protect this silly girl..no one can ever bully her okay?Is really hurting to see her with someone else. the moment we spent is really no one can be replaced. i wun find anyone better den her. seriously, so i wun be having anyone new and i'll keep waiting for the chance. batam is romantic, and really have to thank her her making me happy once again. stress FREEE :)).. but oh gwaddd. dun wear till so revealing okay? i glad tt u were with me all e time ytd. but u still didnt wanna accept me. is sad and i expected it. jus tt i dun wish t assume or dun ask. i dun wish to force u.. u are tired and i let u be as free as u wan .. as long as u r happy.. of cos after our r/s ended in beautiful note.but still i believe there is a part II.like all those drama.i always believe in miricle.OH ya,at some occasion every relatives ask abt u, concern abt u sending lots of regard to u. it really make me upset. and afterall u are seriously a very nice person to be with. i love e cosy and slacking days with u..i miss u so much.. hee takecare don over wrk urself okay alright. visiting u soon at fullerton soon okay?

never thought i would come out to be the heartbreaker.
im being pressured by the shocked im carrying inside.
you look at me with guilt and confusion in ur eyes asking me to let you go
i have no answer words stuck on my tongue but to yes.

i acted like a fool like a selfish child
dont understand what came over me at that time
all i wanted to say
baby please be with me, i will change to be better and takecare of u.
because of those eyes u told me that pls dont force me ..

u did not think of how i would react
never thought that it would take us to the end
i still sit here in shock still trying to figure out how
i know ur really mad n tired i can see it right through that smile

thoughts fill my head how can i make a change
i believe tt is always miricle
i used up all the chances to change my ways
i know u have no more room in ur heart for forgiveness
now i have to walk beside u and pretend to be just a friend
while i hold on to my heart and hide the pain..

i have no choice but to let go.. :))

2007-10-20T20:15:00.000+08:00

hey darling :)..
let me say what i feel like telling you, this last time.. mUshy a lil.. :))
Girl, you were itelligence and smart person. i believe you have a great
future ahead of you.be persistence.. remember e poster i get for you when u having
ur exams..u always lack of confidence and doesnt believe in youself.. u always acted YES! i can do it and try to professional. but always ended up nervous till the whole things is over..silly girl, all u need is more confidence about ur intellectual experience in ur studies and job experience. u can do it when u work very hard , but dont overwork okay? you WORKAHOLIC WOMAN!!u are weak , u can get sick and even depressed yourself. relax yourself like how u used to. VCDS, CHOCS , HARKS , FRIENDS AND UR ORANGEY'S WORLD..dun preassure yourself too much silly. i have alot things to tell u .. from where to start.
firstly.. DUN LET PP take advantage of you.. remember what i say when pp took advantage of you. u'll suffer and they don't know hw you felt after hurting you.
Is stupidilty so be as smart as now in r/s choose e right one whether u think u will commit in it a not.
secondly you have to take good care of yourself when im nt by ur side always.. you're an independent woman that doesnt need me around away. you dun have to worried for me.. i will walk through the hard times by myself. remember that i promised god and myself that i would protect and take care of you for rest of my life. and this is a promised. i will always be here taking care of you when u need someone and listen to you thru every single troubles and problems you will be having.24/7 im here for you. protect you and no one will get to hurt you ok silly ??? if one day, im gone nt in this beautiful cruel world. god will replaced me to takecare of you..so becareful so many ppl crowding you to takecare of you :))..
you're always so naive always trusting your friends words and everything. u never noe whether they did or didnt talk behind your back because u wun noe.
jus remember be firm never let ppl pull u down at e position u having..
no one is perfect every1 is two-headed snake.. sometime i also like tt.. but u noe treating ppl nice and pleasing ppl is stupidilty.. u and me the same we always pleasing ppl . i feel that no one appreciate us or me. i dunno being nice to ppl i dun wish to get anything i feel happy .. but they tend to ask more n taking advantage of us. u noe it well too.. so jus becareful..
lastly.. i wanna to thanks you so much for being my side always.
you are great.. u are so beautiful that spark my whole life with colours.
created a new me, letting me noe tt there is still someone loving me.
we spend really great times together and being with u was great.
i love being ur gf and i love ur flaws.i cant bear to leave u at all.
we have comunication break down..
but i have to be strong and matured enough to respect what is ur decision.
lets nature take it courses. maybe we still don't know each other well yet,
i'll slowly get to communicate with u more often and start to be friend..maybe there is miracle or maybe fated to be like this. what is urs is urs.. if u never come back to me. mean u will nver. takecare good care of your mens. u noe it well tt ur tummy wasnt good. extra care for ur body.vomitting and swelling face it hurt me alot. if u really doesnt feel good and felt sick call me i will rush down and bring u to e doctor and takecare of u.. u are weak alright.. silly.. i love u tht is last three word i wld say to u.. i noe u didnt want to listen all e mushy words. but jus one last time la.:( Huggs--- even though i wishing that there is this lil chances of miracle. i hope u do really get what i mean :)

hiding with a broken smile..

2007-10-17T23:43:00.000+08:00

hiding with a broke smile..
everything is nt in my way

is over*...

2007-10-15T09:00:00.000+08:00

really hope she could take good care of herself.. dun get any closer to butches like me...is bad.. really bad..
jus let me have a last cry..

My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the shelf
I saw you holding hands, standing close to someone else
Now I sit all alone wishing all my feeling was gone
I gave my best to you, nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I've gotta put you outta my mind this time
Stop living a lie
I guess I'm down to my last cry

I was here, you were there
Guess we never could agree
While the sun shines on you
I need some love to rain on me
Still I sit all alone, wishing all my feeling was gone
Gotta get over you, nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

One last cry, before I leave it all behind
I've gotta put you outta my mind for the very last time
Been living a lie
I guess I'm down

u were my life who else can enter my life.

2007-10-13T01:11:00.001+08:00

hmmm.. i dun love her who do i love?
hmm..there always a question mark in ppl life what they wan .
nobody is perfect.
hopefully. i could stand by her side forever.
cos she were e one for me:)
let pray for me

Miserable life

2007-10-10T02:15:00.000+08:00

my life is always a question. wad shld i do..
wad is my next step.. did i walk e right path for my life?
or m i as worse as before.
i smoke like nobody buisness always in trouble, jobless.
now im jus like an dog follows ppl order and just do..
i feel so irritated.
u noe sometime i need to destress wad i having.
depression is starting to near-ing me soon..
i so afraid, i dun wish to have it.
but e sysmptom i having blur, messy minded. and irritating action..
causes me go bonkers.
i feel there is a heavy load i have to carry.
is nt easy. is v tiring.. i dunno i could take it anymore.
im the ben, ppl use to call i can bear w it.
is v hard for me.
hopefully my mentor will be fine..
everyone is worrying..each day passes,
e worrying part is getting worse.
huggs- takecareee..

sighhs

2007-10-09T10:11:00.000+08:00

i suddenly change blog skins cos.. i mess my whole blog..
hmmm.. sighs baby dun be too worried and afraid. always look on e bright side of life..
alright? i might be looking forward to see u soon ;)
sighs life so sucky.
one of my mentor is gone..
when i laugh i can hear my own echo. no more mentor beside me anymore.
feel so upset and worried for her.
hw is she and wad she doing.

go for ur dream darling...

2007-10-05T01:30:00.000+08:00

Babyy.
jus a piece of advice..
hmmm.. i jus want u to go gain ur experience.
u're such a beauty in my life.
and u noe it well i dun like u to leave my side.
but a duck is always a duck.
is ur life and ur freedom.
jus go for it!!
cos u controlled ur life. being happy or sad.
dun care wad others say.
even me. im nt as encourage as others.
but all i wish is wad u dream of and ur success.
im supporting u. giving all my Support to u.=))
believe in urself. U CAN DO IT!
cos u were e one who can make urself happy.
dun stress urslef. give urself confident.
one day u will leave me,
i noe it well to.. the time haven reached yet.
maybe soon or later.
is all fated.
ur dream u have to achieve. u nv try u wont noe.
when u try there is a 50%- 50%.
if u dun try at all. there is diffinate a 100% NO.
hmmm i understand u need more freedom and travel was ur best idea.
u dunno what is ur dream.
go for everything u can and pursuit something u think is best for u.
even if u didnt get in e first round think positively alright?
im always behind supporting u.
wishing u ALL E BEST and Good luck darling..
and
love u! mwahs.

my internet is ON AGAIN!! LOL

2007-10-04T09:37:00.000+08:00

hahaha ytd was having a great DAMN day. but so tired..
thanks baby for accompany me e whole day..
she like so HAOLIAN with her new clothing she bought.
hahaha.. MWahss. been so tired..
hw everything.i can say is good:)
but stress up u noe?

staying out!!!

2007-09-21T23:04:00.000+08:00

it was cool to stay out la.. tt all i wan to say. hmm i done tis for my dearie..
dun wrk so hard k?

LOL!!

2007-09-18T01:05:00.000+08:00

NO INTERNET FOR ME.. i steal ppl's connection.
my darling has been so tired WRKG AND WRKG..
hmm..silly!! now u have wad very EArly shift and Very LAte shift. u makes me
worried for ur health.. jus take good care of urself at wrk.
if u wrk Super early or late shift i will nt be meeting u okayy??
DUN wan to add on ur burden and stress. u need more sleep.
hahaha.. i wun disturb u from ur sleep la..
hheehehe.. u are my precious one, i dun wan anything tt causes u so much tt
irritates u..hahaha.. i was jus disturbing u. tt all so dun worry.
anything u can share with me i will open both big ears to listen wadever happens..
dearie... i love euuu.. i gt nothing more to say.. u were my loved and forever it will be.:D dun over take ur slimming-pills. HEALTH FIRST?!!!? alright promise me. heee!! mwahs.. Good nite and have a sweet dream..

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wrkg stress are over my head..
learnt nth but scolding always.
shld i changed my job and go something for future.
learn more abt office wrk and help my dad with his company.
but i doesnt have any interest in anything abt paper wrk..
I love hair, i feel there is a passion in it.
and tt makes me feel satisfaction. not GIRLS(as i have a wonderful gf) why wld i
have girls. but the hair and me. that all.. sound pervertic right??hhee.e.
darling u were e best and thanks for all e supporting.
i Love u and i were want to give u the best of everything. hopefully e GUESS wallet
u like it alot alright? darling.. COACH will be ur next target alright?
i will buy u one for christmas or i will change ur digital cam to a better wan..
Mwahhs.. take good care...
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i have been going to herstory party with my dearest just last thursday..
was so fun drink dance drink and dance..
of cos mr. kazaf and mr ian was there too.
but sorry guys i was too busy with my girl.
heee.. darling do i dance like a shit..
did i attract u? or we've been to long tgt tt u dun feel seduce.. hahah
thanks for joining me.. ur dance was gorgeous and ur sexy lil move
turn me on so MUch.. heeee.
and latest we went to fashion bar.. is so FUNNY.. there is no customer
except for my baby and me.. we drink of cos, the china girl doesnt even understand
our english.. poor conduct..haha den after tt we went to Grab a bite on e cheesecake.
so delicious,is my darling favourite places to hang out..
u were e best of all..and thanks for ur accompany i noe u give in alot of
ur precious time..:) LOVE U!! tt all for today! im tiredd going to Zzzzz@@

LOL do u noe wad i have been doing???!!

2007-09-09T01:31:00.000+08:00

I HAVE BEEN EATING AND EATING LOL!!!
see wad me n my baby been doing..hahha
firstly our anniversary. i bought her this on our anniversary!!
den before a few days of our anniversary we went to eat!!! AT NEWTON...

SEE her lil puffy face so CUTE...Mwahss

JEALOUS RIGHT!! hahaha.. we can eat so much.. :):)and
recently we went to clarke quay..
heee here goes to e desert palace!!
my baby loves there so much..
and its beautiful glass house..
let take a look at e and why i say my baby is so happy and doesnt want to leave :D.

this is e place

she is happily eat :))

and when we decided to leave.... this is wad the reaction :(

hhahaha thank you baby for everything ur accompany and this hw we relaxed ourselves.. i love you thank u so much . seriously i do appreciate everything :)
overall let see our beautiful photo together.. darling have a good sleep yea!! HUGG!mwahs spending so much time with u was a really memorable days for me.. u were e precious girl for me. and i wanted to update this to remind myself tt i've a beautiful and gorgeous gf that no one has. and im so lucky and fortune to have this beautiful girl who always being ard me.. MWAhhsss.

Happy aniversary darling..

2007-09-03T02:07:00.000+08:00

hmmm. HAPPY ANIVERSARY DARLING.
i loveeeee yoouuuuu.!!! even though u doesnt likes flowers i still bought for u.. but is gone again.. been thru so much up and down, i realize our r/s really have alot things still dun understand.. hmmm.
hmmm.. yaa!! ur laptop is spoiltt.... oh gawd. i will bring it to IBM to repair for u alright..see wad happen or else jus get buy any laptop okay?I cover for u half. money cannot buy anything. i didnt wan to stress u . i jus wan u to be happy with e things u have and like. that all i didnt wan anything in return. all i wan is u to be happy that all. so dun feel guilty preassurize with anything. im here for u internally LOL. and forever lend you my shoulder to cry on. jus let me know and i'll be there for u. anytime and day 24/7 only for u . i knew that deep in my heart u love me, cares alot for me and u put in alot effort to be committed and makes me happy. i noe u do hide things from me, to prevent quarreling and misunderstanding. that why u kept all by urself who u met, where u went and etc.. no matter wad u tell me i trust u as u nv lied to me. hee. so is okay to go out with anyone and is true tt u dun tell me before i think alot. HAha... but baby, jus dun let anyone bully u. go out feel happy and relaxed urself with ur friends tok as much as u cld. even though u wun talk to me as much as before cos. we tok always. heeee.. Overall i wanna tell u i love u. and i do care for u alot. MWahhhss. HAPPY ANNIVERSARY DARLING. may everything run smoothly for u .. Huggs do takecare of urself at wrk. MWahsss..

Beautiful girl..

2007-08-26T01:23:00.000+08:00

for e past few days were so romantic.. i love e days we spend our time drinkg coffee or even hanging ard and seat at some bars. u make me so happy u were wonderful. i knew u tired and u are lazyy.. but dearie.. i LOVE U! that all i want to say. even my action didnt speak louder den wrds. but it all meant frm my heart. i love u so much. u were e beauty in my eye. DarLING!! GAMBATEI! MWahss. jiayou alright.i will be right here for u when u need me and i will be e strong person to takecare of you. u were doing great. jus dun overwork yourself.im so happy thank you so much.!!!!! I LOVEEEEE UUUUUUU!!! GOOOD NITE DARLING>>>>>:)

i love you..

2007-08-21T01:29:00.000+08:00

baby..i jus want to tell u I LOVE U... hopefully tml is a beautiful day for us..

all because of you..

2007-08-07T01:33:00.000+08:00

hmmm. dear BLOGGY>.
LOL been so rotting right? LOL
hmmm.. life been bad but stil have to go on.
get to noe my silly baby feeling. i knew there is a prob in btwn us.
if one day we will be apart.
i hope lord will take good care of her.
i will give her e best for now.
and i want her to choose wad is best for her.
i will accept her decision even though it will be an heart-broken ending.
Supporting and encouraging her whatever she needs me.
i believe she is old enough to take care of herself.
she will be a independent girl , but for now i wld takecare of her as long as she wants to.
so please lord lets pray for her and wishes her all the best in everything.
darling even though things are getting bad. i didnt wan anything to hurt you.
if u think that is e best for you, go for it alright.
when u need me pls approach me whenever you want. i will be always here for you.
we cant be lover but we can be Best friend.
i wont disturb you career and ur life in future :))
so dont worry.. heee
now all i want to is accompany u and be with you.
so i could treasure you and giving you all the love i could give you.
that all.. it been a tiring day at wrk.
wrkg stress is always have. be positive and each and everyday will be a better day for u.
Hopefully u are Happy cos i wld be happy for u..
i love you so much. so i wont hold on to u if u doesnt love me anymore.
MWAhhhss. good nite takecare of urself:)

LOL.. been so long didnt update..

2007-07-10T21:44:00.000+08:00

Heyy..
lets talk abt e salon 1st, SALON is OPEN. finally lolz. even though there is alot of scolding frm julian still i do enjoy myself so much yeahooo.. after a few days of hard wrk.
i have a new MUMMY.. esther. she was e one taking care of my stomach,listen to my probs.
i feel fortunate to have her as my mother. i have no intention of her, she was such a great lady i ever met. i wld want her to be e the 10th 1st hair cut when i get to be hairstylist. of cos my Dearest darling will be e 1st after tt my mum and u noe..and follow on. hee.. hoping everything turns out well. this week i have no off day. tiring day. hee been wrkg frm last tuesday everything gg to wrk so tiring..
hheeee..
hmmm... nw my darling start fullerton previously at Espirt. hopefully she is happy at wrk and u noe, dun have so much stress. baby have to be patient and be happy alright.. im always supporting u alright. let me noe whether u are sad and u need someone. let me noe wad u like or dun like. so i will amend everything u are my sweetest darling and perfect wife. u are someone i treasure so much. heee.. huggs.darling please forgive my mistake and sensitivness.
no matter wad u contains e most for me.
darling, u are e best hopefully im someone u can lean on.i dun earn much, i cant give u anything u wan but i wld wan to give u e best if i could.
darling i love u!

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e day before was e funniest thing.
my darling n me was stuck in east coast, and both of us get fed up.
my darling almost cried. but sumtime baby, dun throw temper on me.
i jus wan to accompany u tt all..
heee. darling is okay is our funniest day.. LOVE U

I miss u badly..

2007-06-20T01:07:00.000+08:00

mmm..looking thru our foto.. i miss u so badly.
u're no more a free-woman who can just go out w me anymore.
i noe u need more free time for family, ur friends and urself.
I love u so much.
is like ppl say when ppl goes together for longer period they tend to lose feeling..
but for when each time and day passes.
my love for u grows to e point of much. i noe u feel stress if u dumped me.
i will still stand up by my own..
so dun worry. no matter wad u do or wad u thinks is right.
i will agreed even though i might be very sacarstic to u .
but is for ur own good. i treasure u so much.
im worried and i miss u and ur voices.
do u noe tt why i always call u and sms u when u are nt with me.
i noe is irritating u see LOL.
but baby. pls no matter wad happen im always beside u .
even one day u gt married.
anyone bully u, i might do sumthing childish to e person.
cos i dun wan anyone to hurt u .
cos u stand in my heart was so BELOVED.
take good care of ur health and pls dun over wrk.
fullerton might be a good start but it might be very hard to go thru.
Stand on ur feat and work, dont throw ur intergity out.
and do things which nt from ur knowledge.
i believe u will go thru everything and its with me to go thru every thick and thin with u.
pls do treasure urself like hw i treasure.
Huggss. so dun over-stress yrself at wrk , u can find somewhere better with ur smart lil brain.
hmm..i wld wan to lend my shoulder to let u cry on.
i wld do anything to make u happy, cos it makes me feel happy to see ur beautiful smile.
overall.. anything i cld help u, i wld.
LOVE U Darling!
Jiayou!
NIte

today we went to e beautiful place..

2007-06-13T02:07:00.000+08:00

we went to Dempsey Today!
wad a beautiful place and my lil princess love it alot.
i feel so happy when i get to bring her places we have never go b4.
i love u so much darling.
been wrkg so hard and u have to tired urself so much.
most importantly u cant over-work urself and getting so stress w work alright.
we have to enjoy life too alright.
MWAhs..
u were so beautiful when u went to ur cousin's dinner.
dearie!!
i LOVE U .. u were someone i want t make u HAPPY.
and hopefully everything goes well w u at wrk.
Dun flirt ard ah..lol jkg i noe u hate me saying all this.
BUT I LOVE U>.
:)

Sighss..

2007-05-21T00:34:00.000+08:00

so TIRED..DIDNT get to have a good sleep.
sighhss so tired , sprain my super thumb..
alright!

finally i manage to come internet..

2007-05-17T23:07:00.001+08:00

Baby.. i love you..
thank u for keeping me accompany me all this while.
:) lol tml u starting wrk le..jiayou!
drink much water and dun over work yourself.
u always like tt ya.mwahs!
LOL..
Baby,jiayou u will get fullerton! trust me , u will get in base on ur capabilty and yr sincerity
will be appreciated by em.
ALways look on e bright side of life!
okay?
Mwahs.
i get to see a bastard is a cheater!
he cheat company money and ya.
why like tt!! yea, finally 3month later i nt gonna wrk w bullies!
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im nt goonna meet my dearie so soon..
baby.
i love u yes i do..
dun keep playing game sleep early alright?
Huggss!! MWahhssss..

finally i manage to come internet..

2007-05-17T23:07:00.000+08:00

Is a tiring day..!

2007-05-09T00:15:00.001+08:00

hmmm sighs.
tiring day..
it make me so tired and tired.
gonna sleep soon..
waitin for tt silly girl to go home.
sighhs..
better dun disturb her alrd.
later she think tt im irritating..ok ok.
forget it. Night.

its not a bad day. is jus a ordinary day w concern!

2007-05-08T01:12:00.000+08:00

hey bloggy can i make a wish come thru over here?
if can i wld wan to make a wish over her.
my baby's tummy is driving her nuts and it driving me nuts too.
i hope the pain in her tummy dun hurt her and bully here.
why dun the pain jus get into me. i dun wish to see my love one
get Hurt and suffering.. she is my another half who i cared most and i feel the way
she felt.
today i saw a bunch of stars at MRT station at bishan.
and i wanted to grab the stars one by one and give it my dearie.
the stars is our guardian angel.
wld acompany her , takecare of her and protect her.
and help her lil pain cramp to get away.
dearie..
i really hope ur cramp will be alright.
i misses u so much, u were impt to me.
and i wld rather i got the pain and nt u.
baby can u let me invade ur own private world.
and let me understand u .
i wld nt be stubborn , and listen to ur probs.
i will always be there for u,when u need someone i will be standing right infront of u hugging u and telling things will be okay and i will protect u if anyone dares to bully u ..
trust me and i will trust u tt u wld protect urself.
sill im always supprting ur decision and wad u think its right.
GO for ur dreams and go for u goals.
im always right behind of u supporting all the way.
silly,
i love u and yes, i do.
words doesnt meant anything but u shld noe hw i felt for u .
may god bless ur cramp and hw i wish i could hugg u to sleep.so u wun feel any pain in ur tummy.
Mwahss. i love u !!
Gd nightt

my ambition !!

2007-04-25T00:55:00.001+08:00

lol let me tok abt my ambition and wad i decide to do.
firstly i wan to open a salon of my own.
every week of my off day i wld wan to go to the old folk home to cut their hair and perming(if have time) , in different old folk home.
and sat and sun go to tiong bahru one room one flat old auntie for free haircut.
donate 1/6 of my pay to the oldies.
Do something for them, after their hard wrkg for e past 50 to 60yrs.
they need rewards, this is wad i think.
i want my dream to fulfilled.
cos overall i dun wish to be a rich kid or rich person cos i wan to share w ppl who deserve wad they should have and nt mis-treating them.
hmmm..
earn more money for my dearest girl who wanna to be Tai Tai in future..
LOL... it is very tough for me i have to wrk hard but this really motivate me to become a
hairstylist.i dun wan to be famous nor being proud of myself. i want to satisfy my ambition.LOL

baby..i miss ur Funny action..
even though u are toking to me.
i still wan to hug u badly.
hope u are feel better after ur 1st interview.
Jiayou! jiayou!
Mwahhss... u can do it.
stop stressing yourself okay.
Im here always supporting u dearie!
Love you always

my ambition !!

2007-04-25T00:55:00.000+08:00

and im telling you im changing!

2007-04-10T22:55:00.000+08:00

Look at me, Look at meI am changing
Trying every way I canI am changing
I'll be better than I am
I'm trying to find a way to understand
But I need you, I need youI need a hand
I am changing
Seeing everything so clear
I am changing
I'm gonna start right now, right hereI'm hoping to work it out
And I know that I can
But I need you, I need a hand
All of my life I've been a fool
Who said I could do it all alone
How many good friends have I already lost?
How many dark nights have I known?
Walking down that wrong road
There was nothing I could findAll those years of darkness
Could make a person blind
But now I can seeI am changing
Trying every way I can
I am changing
I'll be better than I am
But I need a friend
To help me start all over again
That would be just fine
I know it's gonna work out this time
'Cause this time I amThis time I amI am changing
I'll get my life together nowI am changing
Yes I know howI'm gonna start again
I'm gonna leave my past behind
I'll change my life
I'll make a vow and nothings gonna stop me now
This wad i feel..

Happy and sad

2007-04-04T02:49:00.000+08:00

HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!
wow we have been together for 12months=365days=8760hrs=525600mins=3,153,6000sec..
thanks for spending a great day out today.though we wanted to go to Mt faber.
but anywhere wil be fine for me if my dearie say so..
today wasnt any day special for anyone..
but its my special day to get the honoured to be with this beautiful, gorgeous lil princess,
whose is cute and sweet.thank u for giving me this chance and opportunity to let me be in
ur life..
thanks for creating this beautiful full of rainbows colours tt shine on me always.
ur beautiful smile tt melt my heart off..
ur Cute lil giggle tt turn me so happy.
overall i want to apologise for my immature and childish behaviour,
i will change for the better and be the person who can tok to u alright dearie?
i willingly to do anything jus for my loveable princess wants..
dearie thanks for ur forgivens.:)
i want to let u noe tt since u came into my life,i dun want u to be
so stressful and i wants you to be happy as u can be.
cos u came in my life i want you to hav happiness cos u are part of me.
and i really thank u for given me her..
ur smile realli created me alot things but i really attracted by it..
u noe i LOVE YOU THE MOST AND IS ALWAYS TRUEE...
--------------------------------------------------------
Saturday was CRAZY..
my dearie cry like noboDy lookin at her..
my dearie eye was so puffy.
her friends are v sporty and went over to celebrate her bday.
she was so touched..
baby hope u like it alot..
HUGGs

------------------------------------
SUN was a fool day
quarrel w my dearie tt almost she gonna dumped me.
its my fault who doesnt care hw she felt..
but frm nw on babby.. im here
one call and im like a superman fly over there to rescue u and protect u..
dearie trust me for once..
HUggxs.thank you dearie... huggs
i wll nv, be so sensitive abt it anymore
so sorry on sunday,
im nt giving u excuses but to let u noe
U REALLY MEANT SO MUCH TO ME>>
I LOVE U DEARIE>>
MWAHHss..

hmmm..:S

2007-03-27T01:22:00.001+08:00

i MISS u baby..
HUGG..
u coming back today..
omg so fast..

hmmm..:S

2007-03-27T01:22:00.000+08:00

i MISS u baby..
HUGG..
u coming back today..
omg so fast..

hmm. i hate to quarrel with u so much..

2007-03-24T20:15:00.000+08:00

i miss u so much.. can we stop all the quarrel..
i really does..
can u dun mix up our r/s like this..
i hate t see u getting pissed..
i hope u noe it well too..
takecare and hav a great day over there...
im sorry to make u pissed.
sigh.. i jus hate the feeling.
when u are oversea and i cant even see u we still quarrel.
i misses u so much.. i wan to see u after u come str9 away.
i dun wan to see after any other day..
sighhs.
baby.
i realli hope to talk to u ..
in a way to let u understand me baby..
huggs

i miss u like crazyy..

2007-03-23T01:10:00.001+08:00

sighs guihe is going to turkey as her parent is wrkg there.
she nt coming back..
everyone is leaving me aside..
baby i miss u.
where are u..
having nightmare all day..
sighhs..
where are u ..
i misses u hug and kisses.

i miss u like crazyy..

2007-03-23T01:10:00.000+08:00

yawnn..

2007-03-20T22:43:00.000+08:00

its a boring day..
i misses my Girl so much..
baby.. where are u ..
today i heard ur fone call make me so excited and happy..
i didnt went out..
after wrk straight away went home.
no girls wan to date me out.LOL
jkg. i jus dun have the mood to go out.
must be thinking jiang hao shi..because u r out of sg.
i can play ard.. :P:P
nono..
i didnt la..jus boring.
i dun have the mood to go out..
dearie.. there must be damn coldd...
im worried..
but dun catch a cold la.
hmm.. MWahs..
HUGG.. baby give u a big hugg..
i so LONELY>..
:S
Takecareee.

baby..jus the 1st day

2007-03-20T02:06:00.000+08:00

i miss my dearie so much..
jus the one day make me have so much saddness and lonely..
u noe , u give me a sudden lost. no one to tok to, no one saying she love me.
and no one letting me noe whther she is bored.!!
i feel so empty and lonely..
is so terrible u noe..
i dunno whether u do miss me nt.
but all i am doing is thinkin of u..
Huggs,
thank u for smsing me jus the two msges for today.
at least i feel tt u still think of me..
hmm. i went out today at night for a while.
whole day, im staying at home.
today my friends ask me when will chase on girls.
i told them, i have someone i treasured and loved so much.
i will nv leave my dearie aside.
cos she being so supportive and yup..
even though baby u arent as open inside.
im okay , i still can survive w/o tt thing u noe..
u dun attract me with ur sexy body.
but with ur sweetness tt cover inside u..
i love u and yes i do..
i dun mind shouting my love to u.
cos u jus meant the whole world to me.
i need u...

thailand tripp!!

2007-03-11T00:36:00.000+08:00

I MISS U BABY..
it was great everything was nice and beautiful..
i misses my darling beauty girl so much.
she is sleep so soundly nw.
hmmm..
having lots of fun w my girl.
this is my 1st trip w someone who i really loves.
baby,
hmmm.. thank u for ur acompany me.
huggs-
i realli love sleepg beside u and hugging u tight..
baby..
I MISS U..

Happy 11th month sweetheart..!!

2007-03-03T23:15:00.000+08:00

Happy 11th month dearie..
it been so fast we have been tgt.
thinkg back we have so much quarrels and we have so much 'Fights'..
but i jus hate the way we quarrel, both of us are as stubborn as each other..
but baby i have to let u noe.
all i have say(negatively) and even being sacarstic.
i really dun mean it, im a very stubborn person.
mwahs..
thank u for keep forgiving and forgiving to me.
i will try to keep my cool.
thank for respecting me this few days.
as u have tell me abt ur whearabout.
hmmm.. im nt jealous whoever u go out wif.
jus pls tkecare of yrself.
u r old enuf to takecare of urself.
but pls protect urself.
over all i want u to have fun and enjoy urself.
but U NOE UR LIMIT U CANT DRINK MUCH.
OR ELSE ANYONE CAN RAPE U LA..
hmmm.. im nt open minded all this.
im a v conservative person esp on gf.
i wld wan to protect u and take care of u all my life.
baby u are the one for me.
no matter what happen in the future or wad.
i will standing right beside u supporting u all the way.

anyway, ILOVE U BABY..
this song is only for the girl i love most
and tt u..
hope u like it

Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we made can never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced
Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we made can never be erased
And I promise you that you will never be replaced
I love you, yes I do I'll be with you as long as you want me to
Until the end of time
From the day I met you I knew we'd be together
And now I know I wanna be with you forever
I wanna marry you, and I wanna have your *KID*(nv)
It can never compare to the feeling of your kisses
I can say I'm truly happy to this day
You’ve made me thank God that I live my life everyday
There's never been a doubt, in my mind
That I regret ever having you by my side
But if the day comes that I have to let you go
I think there's something I should probably let you know
Enjoy everyday that I spend with you
And I will miss you cause
I'm happy that I had you at all
Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to girl I think that you should know
The love we made can never be erased
And I promised you that you will never be replaced
Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
The love we made can never be erased
And I promised you that you will never be replaced
You will never be replaced I feel for you, girl,
yes i do I’ll be with you as long as you want me to
Until, the end, of time !

baby i lovee u ..call me when u see it

hihi

2007-03-01T09:52:00.000+08:00

hmmmmmmm.. is it nice? LOl this wad i make for my baby on her 21st bday.

last year i done small lil stuff. but this year i have to make something nicer.

she meant the whole world to me.

and i realli wan to make something tt she wld rmb.

no matter she does or doesnt love or like me at all..

i will still do everything for my only loved.

Mwahhs..

let u all see wad i done for her in e past bah...

hahah i shld update 1st...

2007-02-23T03:23:00.001+08:00

baby..
Happy CNY..:)
hope u love ur lil surprised ytd afternoon..
sorry i hope u wld like it cos i took very fast time to complete it.
hmmm..
why m i celebrating ur bday so soon..
cos i afraid i cant celebrate w u..
cos we might nt be tgt anymore. CHOI
hmmm.. i have a very bad feeling and HUGE FEAR..
and i realize tt nw im having it..
is so scary tt wld make me go crazy.
but im stabling myself, trying to be strong(as im nt cos im a sissy) :(..
hmmm since tt day we quarrel on the 2nd day. i really have a super bad feeling..
i really hate u screaming at me , and the way u talk like anytime u wld wan my life.
i dun mind giving u my life if u r happy.
but the main purpose is tt, i hate u getting angry every single time.
even i make u happy after tt...
u still gt angry at the beginning.
i dun wish our r/s turn up badly or breaking w stupid reasons.
u shld noe wad i mean..
HUggs..
over all i want to let u noe
u mean 101%much to me..
i dun mind doing anything which can make u happy.(except stars or unpractical stuff)
hehee..
i gt nothing more to say..
my actions are more den words.
as i will nv forgotten tt u said..
i hate ppl who say dun do, words are bigger den actions.
but my actions prove everything single thing..
I LOVE U! is enough and i hope u cld feel the way i feel abt u (:
hmm.
ur throat isnt good today,
i dunno whether the beancurd
helps but i tried my best to get u the coldest of all..
hmm, tml i will get u medicine.
those vic and honey i tot it cld help
but dun seem good to me lei..
:P:p
U are damn tired la..
shooooo.. im going to sleep..
i will pray for u every night..
pray tt u wld have great sleep and wonderful dreams.
GOD dun torture her,
jus torture me..
The person wld sacarfies everything jus for her
LIL princess.
HUGGgss.
nyttesss..
LOVE U..

hahah i shld update 1st...

2007-02-23T03:23:00.000+08:00

happy v.day sweetheart!!

2007-02-15T04:06:00.000+08:00

hmmm..baby'
happy valentine day..
im using the new laptop at my hse.
so unconfortable lei.
mwahs!! i love the email and the foto u send to eme..
thnks.u are so sweet!im so touched :))
hehehe..now 4.30am in e mrng and i haven been slpg..
u sure scold me de .
but im jus worry u thinkg too much about ur exams.
and neglacted ur health and ur energy.
and affected ur emotions and feeling..
i cant sleep when u cant even have a nice lil rest.
heheh.. no excuses!
today i didnt play audition at all..
eventhough there are KENNEATH THIS BOY ARD..
giving u beautiful flatter and sweet testi..
im nt jealous..
at least i noe i treated u the best..
Mwahhss.yea tml u finally can relax.no more tears from u anymore.
i will cheer u up every single time u r upset or unhappy.
dun feel stress be happy.
dun take ur life so hard make it easier for urself.
u can make it through , so dun worry.
alright.hearin u saying out hw stress u were..
i feel really terrible when i heard u crying so badly..
i wanted to cry to.
i cant bear w all the pain..
Mwahs.
all the best w ur study i'll pray for u honey..
u meant the most to me..
---------------------------------------------------------
today my friend say im changed.
in a way of character and responsible.
i dunno wad they meant.
but when the explain clearly.
i didnt realize i change so much toward my gf and my exes flings.
they say i keep wanting to go home.
as gf dun like me to be late home.
and i dun feel like stayin out.
they started thinkg why i suddenly turn so gd..
((:
overall. i told them..my gf is v impt to me.. and i have to
behave and respect her, cos she did give me alot respect..
eheh-----------
one of them scolded me ji hong kia(flirt king)
LOL but nw call me Crazy in love..
ya so funny.. one of them also say i lie to her friend abt 1 ex gf as i have over 50 flings
ard sg.
i was so shocked as im nt a playboy lol.
mwahs overall all i wan is my sweetheart is well and happy
i will stop here tonight!
good night

i dunno wad m i supposed to say..

2007-02-11T02:23:00.001+08:00

hmmm.. JUS leave me alone..

ello dearie..

2007-02-08T02:13:00.000+08:00

you must be sleepg in ur beauty bed.
is alright dun be upset over nt gg to japan.
dun worry i fine with it..
i will let my mum noe tt i dun wish to go.
isnt ur idea it was mine alright.
i love u silly.
i dun wan anything tt affected ur emotions and feeling.
i wan u to be my lil cute princess who bounce around.
yea felt alil disappointed cos i called my dad.
but is okay, my motive was jus being w u, jus the two of us.
nothing much even though there is nth to do.
but i jus wan to share every single min or sec being with u.
being with u was my happiest thing in my life.
dun need to say sorry when u didnt do anything wrong.
i dun blame u for tt.
i understand hw u felt too.
but pls dun be affected.
i wan to let u noe tt u're my precious one..
im nt gonna let anything to harm u or make u upset.
im supposed to make u happy every single day.
tt make me feel the sense of archivement to the beautiful lady who i loved so much.
huggs.
exams is coming im nt gonna bother u anymore further LOL.
haha must really wrk hard and play hard after ur exams.
i wan to see u happy (:
i dun bother wad others have say.
when u graduate and stuff you will change.
i jus bother tt wld u have a happy life and living happily with all e joy..
and of cos dun let anyone who take advantage of my silly girl.
cos u noee u meant so much to me tt i will nv let anyone to harm u.
haha.. see im being so naggy nw again..
overall baby.. JIAYOU!! im always beside u to support u..
so u dun so easily to give up.
be PERSISTENCE! remember de poster i gave u..
is for u to wrk hard and im beside u(: always..
with all my heart and soul ..hehehe

-------------------------------
baby.. valentine coming we will make up to it soon..
but we have to go for dinner togt with ur friends or whoever..
cos this our 1st time having v.day together.
u are my 1st gf who i used my own money to buy u present(normally i use my mum's money or dun buy) hehe.. i wrk hard for wad i earn.
and i feel tt buying for u with my hard earn money is more understandable.
i dun wan to get money frm parent like as if they are taking of u..
nt me , they are helping me to takecare of u, they are ur gf.
but to let u noe, u are so precious to me.
i will takecare of u till the end of my life.
i promised.(:
wow.. our 1oth month jus passed our birthday is coming.
everything so fast.
but im gonna celebrate our 1year anniversary..
at somewhere special and with lots of beautiful romantic memories togther.
no doubt i haven think of the place.
and i think tt japan aint romantic..
so mayb i choose somewhere jus the two of us..

I WAN TO GIVE U A BIG THANK U MY DEAREST WIFE..
U MEANT THE MOST TO ME AND TILL THE EXTEND OF SACRIFIES..
MWAHSS.. I LOVE U MY HONEYSTAR...

baby.. jus a reminded pls u promised me to wear JEAN ON TT day..
so i hope u kept ur promises.
alright..huggs dun go home too late.
i trust u so i have no doubt of u gg even though i have a lil.
if u run u will run eventually..
MWAhhs.. i love u sweetheart. i'll hav faith in u jus dun play play so late.
know ur limt dun give ppl to take advantage or even with their untrue
sweet talk..as they might use on other ppl..
dun doubt me, cos i dun praise or sweet talk to others except for the person
i really think u deserve wad i say.cos it all meant frm ur character and U..
Thanks princess for seeing my long entry !!!
HUGGS!~

Happy anniversary 10th month!!

2007-02-07T00:49:00.000+08:00

--------->tis is our anni present..

babyy..

HAPPY 10th month..

i love u..

no matter wad happen..

i still here with u..

next ten day we wun be meeting la..

tt so sad la..

sighhs.

today we went to watch miss potter lei..

is a quite not bad show..

on sunday..

was a sucky day.

cos we QUARREL..

which make me feel so bad..

u noe i dun like u to walk away like this.

baby.. i can leave w/o u la..

huggs..

i love u the most pls remember tt.

i trying to understand u..

is jus feel so inferior.

i feeel tt we are so close yet so far.

u noe tt kind of feeling.?

hmmm..

but when i noe u are gonna leave me w stupid reasons.

i gonna break down.

hmmm. u noe if u really like someone or u felt tt we are suitable

LET me noe as soon as possible.

cos i dun one u to suffer.

and being w a IDOIT ..

haha i rather im de one who get hurt den u la..

no matter wad i love u the most.

u are someone who contain every part of my heart..

u meant everything to me.

i need u so much..

HUGGs and kisses..

i love u honey.

hmmmm........GOOD MORNING..!!

2007-01-23T09:43:00.000+08:00

hey babby.. morning!!
u haven been sleepg well this few days..
u r nt feeling well.. i very worried for u..
Mwahs.
i realize forcing wont make u happy.
and i learning to let go.
i will control my temper..
i dun wan our r/s to turn out bad.
i love u, u are like a lil princess to me.
huggs.
i treasure u..
anyway,
jus be true to urself okay?
as time passes i think u can handle things well.
and i believe u can.
im very tired of controlling u too :)
happy too right?
is okay la.
if u wan to go out w harks ppl.
i realli wun get angry or wadever so..
so dun worry.
is okay and im alright.
okok.. i gg to wrk.
pls drink more water and rest well.
if anything happen keep me update.
let me noe. so i noe hw will i takecare of u..
Hugg..
LOVE U sweetie..

hmmm..wad a saddening day..

2007-01-16T01:00:00.000+08:00

hmmm..
was really sad and disapponted..
wadever happen..
baby, im jus feel super insecure.
u nv noe hw i felt.
but when e more i think it really pissed me off.
i have nv encounter this kind of thing b4..
u noe its really surprising.
is nt i dun believe or trust u lei.
is jus so sudden..
i really hate this kind of things..
i noe ppl nw will think im unreasonable.
but still im ur gf.
i feel very inferior and ya.
u noe i cant take so much stress.
but afterall i wan u to be happy.
as i think.
de more i get angry, de more u will be sad.
tt why i forgiven u..
i love u, i dun mind everything u done wrong.
is jus an anger.
hmmm..
but still my heart hurts alot.
i feel everything was nt right.
every r/s i gone thru is e same.
with such a musshy msges tt i hate to see.
i wun do anything to make u angry or upset.
jus remember.
is still e same way.
i jus wan u to be happy.
i realize nth is forever.
i realli dun bother anything anymore.
alright? so dun worryy.
i wun ask so much nor see ur msg anymore.
love u take care alright..
tml u gt school..
_____________________
sorry i make u lost all ur friends.
i being so unreasonable..
frm nw on i wun get angry w u .
even u have anything outside.
go and talk to kenneath.
i rather u lose u me den ur friends.
i noe they are impt to u more den i do..
even u noe them less den me.
but still u need them.
u jus take gd care of urself.
if really u have no choices and dumped me.
im okay with it.
u happy im alrd happy for u.
jus tat take good care of urself.
maybe i arent good enough for u.
or so.
at first i dun blame myself.
i'll think tt u dun even appreciate wadever i do and going to do.
and i realize.
ya im wrong.
i has nv admit my mistake
as ht say b4, i always blame but nt myself.
i tot i always e right one.
but i realize tt maybe is jus i done too lil for u.
tat i doesnt meant so much to u.
but still..
u mean the most to me den others.
and u noe it well too.
bt i wun be sticking to u if u dump me.
i wun do anything funny..
to make u feel like a fool or guilty so dun worry.
jus be happy.cos i love u, and i willing to do anythng tt makes u happy..tc huggs

baby..

2007-01-14T02:11:00.000+08:00

This beautiful tree very nice right.. i wanted to shw baby this foto.
cos its realli nice. and i noe she will wan to see it..
babby.!! mwahhss...nice?
heheh anyway i update alot of pic with my dearest one..
go and take a look okay?
http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2105279963

my new wallpaper is it nice?
baby, i love u .. anyway u like the song.. i realli misses u so much!
u dun need to wrk so hard la.
see u today have to wrk till 2am.
crazy!! anyway we wun be meeting frm friday till nw hor.
so sad right..
haha dun worry la i wun be angry or wad.
u noe why?
cos i respected wadever u wan me to do.
cos u're my only one.
and i realli treasure u so much.
hugg..
u dun always sleep so late la.
okay?
i wan to let u noe tt wadever thing happen..
im always here for u.
our 10th month is nearing.
even our 1year is coming. i hope we cld last as long as we can.
i wan u to noe i care for u.
tt why im sensitive.. i scared of losing of u.
tt the reason why i so possesive.
sorry!! i will try nt to bother so much abt ur outside life.
i dun wan u to get cheated by others.
i wan to protect u from e bad ppl.
u noe..pp cannot be trusted nt even ur closest fren.
i always wan to remind u this cos no one really will bother hw u felt.
but be more selfish believe in urself and dun get cheated.
if one day u dun have me, u r independent enough to takecare of urself.
dun let ppl bully or even advantage of u.
cos i really i wan u to protect and love urself.
no one will realli bother u when they alrd took advantage of u..
u can share everything to me.
whoever like u or wad i dun mind. jus tell me and dun keep to urself.
i trust u , if u wan to go i wun stop u. if u really think tt person really
will treat u so nice (: yuP?? and u have ur own reasons.
i wun be forcing u to be back with me.
i wun kill u nor kill myself.
i jus wan u to be happy and tt realli make me happy.
and nver get bully live happily.
im nt greedy.
i ever pray to god,
i wanted to takecare u with my whole life.
but if one day i cant.
i hope god would protect u and love u.
when u're sick and u r down u can hav someone who really takecare of u.
this is wad i hoping for u.
i dun think for myself except for u honey..
sorry being so naggy..
haha baobei i love u that is more then words to describe.
mwahs.
sleep early.
u are very tired..
wadever it is u meant the wrld to me..

i really hope our r/s will get better..
jus be honest to me .
i will try to be more serious and forgive and protect u.
i will control my temper to the best.
so i really wan u to stay happy as happy as u can.
ur smile can make so alot alot ppl fall for u.
and im diffinately de one who fall into e trap..
FEIFEI u are my juilet ..
the girl who i realli wanted to keep next to me forever.
MWAhhhs. i dun mind to do anything for u to make u happy.
cos i really wan to show my concern, love and deng u..
MWahhs..good nite...

Babbyy...

2007-01-07T01:30:00.000+08:00

hmmm,
today was alright..
after seeing haze and willy having such a small prob.
actually is very big for them..
i realize i know how to console willy..
and telling him to tok to haze.

baby,
i realli wan to let u noe everything..
i really hope that we can improve our r/s better.
I wan to let u noe tt..
i wan ur respect, i wan u to be fair for me..
Respect-----------> in a sense, i hope u listen to my explanation and believe me..
Fair----------->u always being so selfish, u dun even let me see ur fone.when i dun let u see my
fone, u will think im hiding something.example for ytd, u show me the attitude.
i didnt do anything wrong u noe. u make me more insecure by doing all the reaction. im always keeping my cool, i love u tt why i do this. is okay u always like tt. but u always blame me 1st den believe me.

Today i almost cry out, everything was so sucky for me . i feel so down.. and ended baby u say things realli hurt me alot. i wanted to cry out loud.. but i tryin nt to. i jus wan u to understand.
i dun wish to keep sayin and sayin. cos i dunno hw to put in words.
u think i have e prob, i guess so.. but seriously the prob lies on me. why am i always so quiet tt everyone start putting blame on me. im okay w everything but jus why always get blame. i jus dun like e feelin ppl treated me. and i really hope u cld shw some concern. even my friends do bully me. i wun say NO and i let pp neglact me. pp hurt me deeply which i really hate it alot..
even i always say funny things to u and make u laugh. i really wanted u to be happy.. cos i dun wish u to be the one who console me..
i lack of trust seriously, u're v secretive.but i have faith in u. i believe u done nth behind my back.but u make me suspect it everytime..
baby. im saying in a nice way, im nt trying to quarrel or pick a fight. i jus want to let u noe. i nt hurting u by saying this.
cos i really want u to know u meant the wrld to me..after u there is no one will come in to my life till i have given up on u.even u got married to someone else. i will still wait for u my dearest..
cos i noe wad i wan, and its true tt i have found e right one. mayb u jus haven find e right one yet.u have future and i know it well either.. hmmm..

baby no matter wad i love u alot, and u realli meant so much to me..
MWAHHS.. i want an answer frm u soon.
and wad u think abt it..
msg me or even reply me thru ur blog..asap..
i wan to know. mwahs

2007-01-04T10:59:00.000+08:00

happy 9th month sweetieee:))
we have been through so much..
i appreciated wad u done for me :P
hmmm.. even though we didnt spend our 9th month together..
is okay for me:)
hmmm.being with u was my happiness things ever.
u make me smile, u pamper me alot and what more?
hmmm thanks baby for being so patient on my temper.
i love u mWAHHHSS..
no matter wad u r like a princess to me (:
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new year eve was FUNNN...~~!@
i spend with baby at hooters can u believe?
LOL even though it wasnt anything special.
but i jus love the feeling of having her by my side.
i was very happy that day.
i guess my baby is having fun..
LOL..
tt night i have serveral irritating phone calls..
it getting on my nerves.
haha overall it was good ..
THANK U BABY>>(:(:(:

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jus two day ago.. my baby bought me A SHIRT..
sorry eh.. i make u accompany me till so many places.
u also very bored le right:(
hehe..

a night out..

2006-12-27T01:37:00.000+08:00

xmas was wonderful.
everything is so superb thanks babby..
babyy. i gg to let u noe this.
sometime u jus dun bother abt me.
this is wad i realize..
i dint blame u at all.
i understand..
enjoy urself at e chalet lor.
____________________________________

hmmm. went out for dinner.
and went to wala wala for a drink.
nth was interesting.
i feel like suciding..
hahhaha..who knows.
i might die soon or later.
life is short. this wad i think..
-------------------------------------
wrk is sucks.
everything is screewd..
i dunno hw to describe it..
but im nt a maid of someone..
pls F off my side who always irratates me ...
____________________________
hey baby,
take gd care of ur tummy..
mens coming soon.. dun drink too much..
and nt too cooling stuff for u alright..
yea i noe im irratating enuff.
i disturb u having fun in e chalet.
i stopping it..
isleepg soon..
love u..
i jus wan to b happy tt all..
takecare i LOVE U

LOL..hope u like e updates i make for u..

2006-12-18T02:12:00.000+08:00

hehhe.. u like ur updates.. :))
i going to sleep le. nw alrd 2.45am.. cos i think ur tagboard is gone.
u misses all ur friends and i upload all e pics i have.
to make u in ur photo shots:) ..
anyway..
this morng i didnt meant it..
i realli hope u understand hw much i realli put in to this r/s.
i trying and struggling to give u e best.
im willingly to give u everything to make u happy.
i didnt force myself to do things for u.
cos u are my sunshine and rainbow. who give me e sunlight to guild me ard.
and e colours to make me happy..
i know this is getting worse.
im e one who is in wrong.
and i have to settled it..
and i really truely appreciated every single things u done..
:P
anyway,
u ah silly lil princess..
fall asleep so early...
i realli do misses u so much.
every night my bed side has ur beautiful w me.
tt make me to sleep..
haha..
do i sound like pervert to u??
eagron was nice show...
and yupp. hope u have beautiful sleep. and im nt gonna disturb u..
i realli bother abt u alot..
and i realli love u , i want to give u e care u need.
and i noe i given too much attention u didnt wan it.
i will try to change jus for u ..
sometimes i jus concern abt u..
no hard feeling..im sorry.. if i done anything tt u dislike.
u must tell me and dun keep it frm me alright.
i feel hurt, if u dun tell me..
share ur burden w me, i dun like u carry jus a big burden w u..
i wan to take all of it.so u will feel comfortable.

christmas is coming..
and my plan was gone.
i was so sorry tt things turn out w no plan ..
i realli wan to spend the bestest and nicest xmas. each year w my beautiful girl..
im realli lucky to have u by my side..
no matter wad. all i want to say is
I LOVE U HONEYSTAR..
i realli truely thank u so much.. mwahs..

GD NITE..

hmmm...

2006-12-16T23:11:00.000+08:00

The day u took me into your chubby arms,
u introduced me to love.
The way you cared for me,
words can't describe,
your love was so tender.

All my life, I've been lonely,
you were my love when no one else loved me.
I know that I could never repay you, in all my lifetimes.
All I have to offer is true love
that I beg you to explore.
When you were left me aside,
emptiness filled the air.
Knowing that you were no longer bothered,

I had nothing to live for.
All I had was you. Without your love,
how can I survive in this cruel world?
Why would you leave me alone?

Do you know how much your love means to me?
I hope one day, you will realize hw much u meant t me,
for your love, I live for, and die for.
You are the rainbow of my life.
Without you,

I am nothing but darkness.
Thinking of you during my irritating nights,
I begin experiencing pain and how much you mean to me.
I feel unworthy ,

but the thought of your love keeps me going.
Will you ever think of me?
because I'll always have you in the deepest
part of my heart,
Forever and more.

..............

so boring... wad a boring day leii...
sianss. anyways yea.intend to update my blog.
been so long didnt update..
everything is so screwed this few days..
i dunno lar.
i trying not to be wad i wan to be.:S..
alrights..
my bb is wrkg. guess she wld be enjoying her day over there..
really nth to do..
get more scolding each days.
broke for my life.
wad more to say?
my bb doesnt like to come my hse.
and nv wld she come again.
i understand now.
everything is jus so fated..
gg zouk this few days..
having stupd fun.. not fun at all..
everything is jus nt i expected.
i hope i wld have a cozy hse.
with my beautiful gf sleeping bsde me every night.
i doesnt mind everyday go home early..
and cook and clean up e house..
i been a no mood this few days..
Sighhs..

hmmm..worried for my love one..

2006-12-09T02:09:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. baby..
Im very worry for u:)
hw tml exam will be fine for u..
today we watch holiday at Sentosa..
hmmm.. haha..
was nt bad but everyone was tired.:) haha LOve u sweetie.
huggs..

it been a total of 8months.

2006-12-04T09:39:00.000+08:00

thanks honeystar for being here for me all e times.
wadever im angry u were the one who cheer my fat cheek up,
tt was e happiness moment in my life.
nth much abt my life. jus sm bastard is jus disturbin me..
life are okay.
my helicopter LOST!
so ssad la..but is alright..
take it easy..
any ytd was our 8th Month..
wohooo.. jealous anyone??
i have this beauty accompany me all the time.
and she totally mine..
maybe sometimes im too sensitive and over protective.
but i jus dun wan anything happen..

hahaha..

2006-11-19T23:39:00.000+08:00

hahah..:) asshole love the hole..Mwahhs
babby..thanks u and i love u..

i WAs in a bad luck and suddenly back to normal..

2006-11-16T02:49:00.000+08:00

thank god. i love u god for giving me such a bad day den turn to a better day..
thanks babe. giving me another chance and chances. i wld nt throw any temper which is unreasonable.yea. im a fool, rascal and bastard.. i admit. thank u so much. i had learn my lesson.its pretty scary though e feeling of losing u.. is super near.
MR BEN.. pls listen up u cannot anyhow scold ppl. its so bloody asshole fault. and i understand. u noe i felt so pressurize and stuff. babby.. mwahhs.. thank you So much again.. im sorry and nv will this happen. cos i dun wish to see u angry and sad at e same time.:( and i really super hurt when u are ingoring me. the feeling is so stupid. Step up is a super nice show i realli love it alot..
mwahhas. and sorry DUDE and fellow sexy friends.
im realli sorry if today i scare and being rude to anyone of u.
i wil amend my Stupid dumbo mistake.
i learn to take things which treasure and cherished.
for nw. i treasure and cherish of wad i had nw.
esp my girlfriend.
Step up is really a super duper nice show.
but i still prefer material girl.
cos there is Hilary Duff.
and even D.o.a is the best of all show tt i watched.
step is more to pp who socialize ard and u noe rich pp and poor pp.
i dun wann to be rascal anymore..
i wan to be a good man who pp respect more.
i learn everythng sweetie,.
take good care of ur health...
and u drinks Lots of water.
i love u , yes i do:))
GOOD NITE..mwahhhs

2006-11-13T23:45:00.000+08:00

hmm. tired so tired.. baby,
so tired.. i miss u so much.. and even love u so much..
sighhs..
u noe. somtimes..i feel very left out.
cos no one cares abt me.
but i really thankful to god tt ive u..
i wun say those i cant live w/o to make u feel stressed up..
i understand tt u are stress.
guess im too rou ma.. and naggy toward u.
really thankful to god..
love u yea.
dun study too hard.mwahs.

wahh..is a alright n fun day lo...

2006-11-04T00:38:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. wow..
went to the places we want to go..
spend a plenty lots of time tgt..
i love being with u..
u r a rainbow tt bring me so much love and JOY.
thank u sweetheart.
thanks for loving me like a baby..
everything is so screwed.
i cant feel inferior right?
i tried ..
mwahhss.. i love u..
we went to lots of places bought a top which i like it so much..
and..
it is quite sad this wld be our last celebration for our anniversary.
so sad righht..
hmmm..hopefully u wld be with me till e end..
being w me is so bored..
i made u suffer and i didnt gives u any sufficent attention i guess..
but let u noe.. i dunno wad im doing also but
pls i put all my attention on u..
:) really. hope u wld noe u meant the world to me..
i cant afford to lose u at this point of time.
MWahhs. hope u enjoy our this two days.
sorry making u so tired..
Hahha.. have a good rest alright.
sorry being so sensitive.
maybe cos i too emotional.
i whine alot uh?
okay.. i will not whine at u anymore.
for more..
i jus wanna let u noe.
i super care for u..
though sometimes i super rough on u.
tt have injures on ur hand or neck..
hehe.. wo hui wen rou de.
i love u that the only thing tt i wan u noe.
i proven my actions to u..
do u noe tt?
haha MWahhs.takecare ya.. thanks u so much for everything

HMm..

2006-10-31T01:58:00.000+08:00

wow. days passes so fast. but time passes so slow..
haha.. hmm sometimes i jus miss my sweetheart.
aiyoh.. haish.
baby.. sometimes i jus wish to hugg u to sleep..
almost everyday..
i want to see u when i wake up frm my sleep and even
hugg u to sleep.
hahah am i too demanding. ?
really u noe i want to see u at home.
and sleep with u?
mwahhs..takecare.. hahaha

hmmm.

2006-10-27T00:16:00.000+08:00

let me update my day today..
i quarrel w tt irritating person.
hmm, in e mrng my gf came..
a group of 6 ppl went out to centuar square watched
DOA.. i feel i spend so less time w my sweetheart..
time passes so fast..
i dun wish e time pass so fast..
i wan to spend e eternity w her.
i dun mind sacrifies my whole life for her..
my mood this few days upset me alot..
hope this kind of feeling will br gone soon..
my gf is gg to hav cramp.. huggs..
and she will suffer e pain again and again..
im worried for her..
baby pls takecare of urself.
we gonna take neoprint again soon rmb??
hope at elegance will Have lots of fun.. cos ive been waited so long.
MWAhhs.. i love u forever.
oh ya wanted to tell u i will be buying a diary for the both of us.
we will take turn and write about wad u wan to say to me..and
wad u are shy to tell me or wadever i didnt treat u nice enuff u dunno hw to tell me.
.. i shld get those..childish type which have keys.so tt no one will peep into or privacy.. hehee. hope to see u soon.. mwAHHS been waitng to go elegance..
SEE U

it is a lonely walk..

2006-10-26T01:23:00.000+08:00

hmmm.. walking alone in e street one day..
i heard elva's song remind me alot things.
bad and good memories.
sometimes jus passing thru my mind.
and i been thinkg for days.
who am i ? what am i? maybe im jus a loner.
is true. i may look normal and cheerful outside.
but inside jus so confused and empty.
i've nv regret wad i choose.
i've been v tired e past years.
but the fear came back. i wants to think for future.
my life, my gf wld be my wife..
yahh..pp might think im ver childish. what? dun i've e capable.
who wld wan to be with a butch for life.
but someone does think before...
but tt someone is with someone she loved now.
i think it wld give her happiness.
i aint good enuff for tt someone..
my likes and favouritism for her is gone..
but her accompany n crazy stuff she done for me has always remembered.
it doesnt mean tt my gf doesnt accompany me.
my gf is too tired after sch or wrk.
she has to spilt her time in sch, wrk, family,friend n Me.
i didnt blame her on anything.
i blame myself for nt taking care of my gf.
i feel like im a loner.being friend w my buddy for so long.
i have enuff of her..
no ones cld scold her like tt someone can to help me wake my buddy up.
i wld prove to ppl i've e capabilty to married someone i loved..my aunt believes me too.. and i really thankful i got her..but i dun think she wants to no ones wants me.
i think im too demanding.im nt living in e past happy go lucky person.
i have to think for future.i believe i have changed nt totally,
change to someone i wan to be...jus suddenly i felt lonely..
no friends ard.. everyone is busy with their things.
haha.. typing this blog making me cries.alright lets dun tok abt e past..
hmmm.. it been v sad my aunt's cancer is till e 3rd stages.
she is someone so concern bout me all e time.
she loves me like a baby.
she take care of me all e time.
she agree with whatever i think..
and supported me with what i think and what i wan to be..
she understand my feeling..
as now.. i wan to accompany her..
i hate myself being a Jerk and Bastard.
who borrow money frm her to pay tt someone debts.
i feel like a fool. i dunno hw to stand up..
my aunt ask me dun walk back her old road.
she suffered alot.
in e past, i wan ppl to noticed me. i want to be famous and i have all e pride.
ended all e shit thing i bring home. my auntie n my mum is the cleanning all e shit.
i feel so bad.yea. now im famous with those monkey friends.
im e famous among e girls in club , ahlians and lesbianswrld..
so what. they arent e one who will be my side forever, all they think is puppylove and jus play hard and being lazy idoits.
tt why i wanted to stay away frm e ppls who ruined my life.
turn to someone my auntie calls a gentleman.i wan to let her see me a person who wrk hard and get wad i wan. and i wan to share this happy thing w her, gf and family.
i didnt wan to disappoint my aunt.
i almost went to girl's home. within tis two years..
i still able to get in..
thanks to her who tell my mum nt too.
recently my friend offer me kua ba--->estancy..
i almost take it, cos i feel im so bored. im so tired in life.
but i think back i has a gf and family.
my aunt is struggling to live on e this wrld..
if i took it. tt is end of my life..
this few days jus being so stress in life. no one t tok to.
even i found someone who can tok to .. i dunno where to start and end.
nw all i think is to treat my girlfriend and family the best tt i could.
cos i love them.. mayb im too stress their care n concern i cant feel it.but
i know they did care. but maybe i feel it too less.sighhs.i dunno..
sigghhs..next time then blog..thnx letting me writing out..

2006-10-19T13:17:00.000+08:00

Girl, it's been a long, long time comin'
But I, I know that it's been worth the wait
It feels like springtime in winter
It feels like Christmas in June
It feels like heaven has opened up it's gates for me and you

And every time I close my eyes
I thank the lord that I've got you
And you've got me too
And every time I think of it
I pinch myself 'cause
I don't believe it's true
That someone like you
Loves me too

Girl, I think that you're truly somethin'
And you're, you're every bit of a dream come true
With you baby, it never rains and it's no wonder
The sun always shines when I'm near you
It's just a blessing that I have found somebody like you

To think of all the nights
I've cried myself to sleep
You really oughtta know
How much you mean to me
It's only right that you be in my life right here with me
Oh baby, baby

Baobao..this song is meant for u..Mwahwhss. i love u yes i do ..
this few days.. :( we been quarrelling alot.
sorry im so nt understanding. but pls..i didnt meant it..pls forgive me.

Sweetie

2006-10-15T00:46:00.000+08:00

heheh.baby baby...we got the saME fone. Wohoo.~~ so happy
i love u deep deep :)
haahaha.. so when r u gg to married to me?
i waiting... mayb i doesnt treat u enuff good ??
there is alot things happen.. guess wad ??!>
im back in STAGE..Surprised uh..
sweetiee. i stil love u as much as anyone does..
i treasure u like nobody business.
i nagg at u cos im super concerned abt u..
i act stupid cos i wanna to entertain n cheer u up with my Silly JOke.
i cherish u as much as u does.
i love u so much tt none of e pp noes hw i felt e feeling w u..
I am crazy over u cos u attracted me with ur beautiful smile.
i am honoured to have such a beautiful and almost perfection gf..
i am so touched you always rushed down to meet me..
i am so desperate to hugg to u sleep.
i am so into u till every night i dreamt of u..
i am so turn on when i saw u belly dancing..
i am so In love with this Beautiful lady who melted me w her big EYES.
i am so jealous when she is v closed w ur guy friends..
i am so selfish that i doesnt want to lose u.
i am so irratated everytime i cant get to see U,
MOST IMPTly u noe it clearly im so addicted to u till there is no way u can dumped ME aside.cos wadever things i do, i jus want u to be HAPPY .. LIKE A PRINCESS..
thank u for being here for me..supporting me and being super understanding..i really appreciated it alot. i love u, no matter ur skin tear into half. ur face is disfirgure. if one day i stil alive i will love u and protect u till the world is stop spinning. even if im nt alive. my spirt will follow u ard protecting w/o u getting hurt. cos u r my dearest precious lil girl who i treasured so much...
LOVE U BABBY.. hope u give me a reply on this entries..
annddd!!!
remember all this arent copy n paste.. so is hw i felt toward u..MWAHHSs..

Happy 6th month sweetiee..

2006-10-04T01:05:00.000+08:00

wow..having a great day..
thanks sweetie for e DKNY Perfume..
I Love it so much.. u r e Queen of my heart.
i gt so much things to tell u..
do u noe i treasure u like a lil princess.
i love u to e bits.
every single time i pray time cld passes here.
i dun mind we been 1 day.. a million hrs jus a day.
to see ur beautiful smile tt makes me melt.
to stay w u and enjoy every sec in life.
cos i know u r e only and one for ME..

everytime u ask me hw u make me so into u.
let me tell u now..
ur beautiful big eyes tt tell me i need to Dote u.
ur beautiful body tt seduce me.
ur beautiful smile tt melted me so much.
ur beautiful humour tt makes me laugh every single time.
i felt tt i wanted to stick to u forever.
and this is true..
i never had such Great feelings in life b4.
thanks sweetie..
i really hope u can be mine forever.
i really wants to takecare of u all my life.
is realli so screwed tt ur parent knows it.
i really v upset.. why wld they noe.
is all my bloody fault.
everything is like a fairy tale.
is jus so happy ending..

i starting to miss u agn.
all my wishes now. i hope we could stay in a isolated island.
jus the both of us.
i wun get bored.
is jus u ard w me.. im so happy.
see ur baby here thinks so much of it.
hmmm. baby.. i love u deeply..
pls dun forget my love for u..
hmmm
i really wish t sleep w u at e same bed..
and e 1st thing i wake up.. i could see u right
beside me.. hugging me.. MWAhhhs..
I LOVE U SWEETIE..today is super fun and happy..
THANK U..

things is happening..

2006-09-25T10:30:00.000+08:00

sighhs..
life are jus so screwed.. i dun even noe wad m i doing..
so stress bout my wrk. but anyway im alrd starting to be a slacker.
i cannot start to be a slacker as i must think not myself but her.
i cant push all e responsibilty to her anyway.but im happy at least i have
relive frm stress at wrk. they are sucker..
LOL.. lets dun talk abt e sad things.. TODAY WE ARE GOING TO HAZE CHALET..
wohooo.. can relax relax yi xia.. LOL. i miss my girlfriend.. where r u baby.. Mwahhss.. hope u doing fine. thnks for being here for me always.. i will be as free as a bird now.t accompany U.. yes U.. cos i realize i have been neglacted U..mwahhs

thanks sweetie..

2006-09-07T08:53:00.000+08:00

thank u for being so Sweet toward me..
u take care of me like a baby..
baby dun be sad.. im here as what i say at e beginning.. im be here for u ALWAYS..
so dun worry abt it.. mayb he will be happy at somewhere or somehw..
he need a long vacation, he wans to be alone n enjoy himself..
thanks baby.. being so great w u at e hotel HANG OUT.. but e stair to Mt emily was
suck la..so long trip, i so fat need to climb so much..
hehe.. spending time w u was great everything turns up so fun and memorable for ME.
u did so much things for me.. jus to let u noe.. i love u as much as before.. thanks for coming by my life n hopefully u will stay forever.cos i never been such happy before.. we do have quarrels somethings. u make me feel anxious and worried for u, everytime we quarrel. but baby pls note in ur mind.. wadever i do, i was jus worried n concern bout.. i didnt mean to hurt u w my wrds. i noe i was harash w my wrds whenever i was angry.i truely Apologize to u.. babby..our 5th month was great and e following month will be great too.. im keen looking forward for it.. hope we could create more memories tgt.. and lastly sweetheart, no matter wad happen t u.. i will stay by ur side n be there for u.. even if ur eyes was swallon like a KOREAN.. i still love u till e bits. LOVE U baby..take gd care of urself hor.. MWahshs..

was a realli good day but for my baby xinku le..

2006-08-30T10:04:00.000+08:00

my sweetest girl,
u have been very tiring right?
having cramps.. ytd was a scaring day for me.
i saw my girl crying after i reach e clinic.
the feeling is so sucky. i regret reaching so late..
i know her pain is killing her.
baby,
no matter wad.. i will b by ur side forever..
even u r ugly, fat or even disfirgured..
i jus love who u are. not cos of ur beautiful appearance.. but
i was all attracted by ur inner. tt melted me..
of cos.. ur beautiful smile cannot be faded away..
cos every single day i will be waiting to see ur smile.
the smile which can make my life brighter. no matter wad.
sweetie, i promise to takecare of u with all my life..
pls pls pls..
u gonna eat ur medicine n rest well alright..??
love u sweetie..

quite sad w life..

2006-08-24T11:39:00.000+08:00

hmm. i realli have to earn enuff money for myself to dress up..
every single one of them. turning more stylish n stuff..
i feel super demorealize wid myself seriously.
i feel everything is nt righht. things dun wrk out like tt.
i have no freedom.. sighhss.. i nver change.. everyting..
hope my sweetheart, didnt get so stress up w her studies.. today
last paper. happy for her..

HEY BAby..;-)

2006-07-31T12:08:00.000+08:00

hope things gettng better for u:)
hmmm im praying very hard to see u..
ur big lil sweetie eye.. jus attracted me so much..
yar.. baby..i wan t hugg to u sleep :(
are u missing me like do???
Mwahhs.. love u..
take gd care of urself.. cos im worried for u..
thanks for everything u done for me..
i appreciate everything u done..
mwahhs..
hope u like e orangey.
hmmm... jus to make u happy i will be happy..
love u dearie..
Huggg...

To my dearest sweetheart

2006-07-26T00:15:00.000+08:00

thanks for e thing u done for me.
i stil love u as much.
i make u suffer so much.
travelling over my place to look for me.
there is so much things to say to u,
u are someone who is so dearest to me.
u r someone i wish to see everyday.
u brighten up my days.
im sorry i hurt u tt day.
with my words.
im sorry tt e past few days i keep being late.
tt make u super angry n pissed.
thanks baby for giving me chances.
i will nt be late.
i will be on time meeting u..
we shall go ot asap.. love u!
what u mean as nt sweet.??
maybe i didnt have much time to spend w u though,
sorry..
pls give me more time to plan my things well.
i will try to understand u as much as i can..
to let u noe ...
I LOVE U WIFE..
i will promised to takecare of u FOREVER..
my promises for u will nv be break..
Love u sweetie..
Must enjoy yrself in sentosa tml..
and..
rest well alright!!
MWAHSS... takecareee

SO complicated...

2006-07-23T02:33:00.000+08:00

hmmm. wow. things so complicated. sighhs seriously nv seen such a funny yet serious thing occur. i hate to handle it. n i told jess tt, dun ever got problems again. is so childish. they're all young adult they shld noe what is wrong. when im young 3years back i noe. being in a big gang or even small group. u will be v cool n girl will jus come to u. when u get older u thinks is STUPID. i thinkk so too..
weird.. hmmm i jus told them. a Simple life will be fine. no need to cos of bgr do occur a fight. do they think is worth. i dun think so u noe?.. dun trust others, trust yrself. cos trustinng urself is e most impt stuff. trusting others they might do something funny behind ur back..
the probs is start w some girl who dont like e *ger*(im siding) who get close to their bfs. and worse e guy was keep denying without helpin e girl. why wld guy like tT? arent they friends. why make things so complicated for each side.is tt guy who kissed em. why will the girlfriend blame e girl den e guys? if de guy didnt want to kiss de girl also why are they pushing all e blame to the innocent lil girl?? why cant they talk properly? the fight was terrible. n i feel useless too. but seriously after see-ing e girl being so brave. i hope she doesnt do it again..
hmmm.. i feel super childish. luckily im out with all this things. i jus wan a simple life my girl. i just told them i prefer having simple life.

thanks baby for coming over to my life.. for creating juz simple life n lovely.
love you. xinku ni le.. love u MWahhs!!

Im seriously having STM.

2006-07-19T11:53:00.000+08:00

lOl. was looking thru my Whole blog. realizing hw Fool or silly m i..
like a idoit like tt..haha..
i didnt noe i was so emotional.
nw i noe..
hmmm. im still as childish as before i guess.
those bad memories is over. i choose to leave it aside.
i have to sacrifice den get hurt.
m i right to say tt?
but seriously i forgotten alot of things.
maybe is part n puzzle of life i guess.
everyone is changing.
so yar, dun expect anything special to occur.
i will hav some preparation.
cos i have occur this kind of things.
you know?LOL..
why m i saying so much unhappy stuff??
aiyoh..
for nw, all i noe i will
takecare of myself n my gf.
that all. no turning back in all e flirt n silly r/s.
hmmm cos i want it over.
i want to have a peaceful life with my girl..
a simple one, and i will be happy..
i dun wan her to involved all e unhappy stuff or getting into trouble.
cos she is highly protected by me.
nth will happen to her.
i gonna shield her if anything get wrong.
so she will safe.
:)) she jus the girl i wanted to protect n love so much..
so pple ard,
dun come over n disrupt our r/s..thank u !